unforgettable...

So here is the post about my long awaited 18th birthday. All the planning, stress, and money were all worth it in the end because even with the super duper bad weather (as always), everyone had fun and that is what I aimed for.


For some odd reason, every year that I've been in Canada (so like 6 years now), it rains UBER heavy the day I celebrate my birthday. It's a piss off alright but what can I do but to look at it optimistically. I just think... hmm maybe God loves me so much, he shows it with snow... LOTS of snow. :) Yeah mon but most of my friends got used to it, and they can't really use the excuse of not making it because of the bad weather because well, my lovely bff Rheena lives in Milton and hell she made it why the heck couldn't you?! But there still were people who could not make it... meh whatever.

So like here was my itirenary for the day:

1. Get makeup done by Alyssa's cousin at 1030.
   
2. Hair appointment at 1 at Donato's.
   
3. Twins picked me up at around 2:30.
   
4. Drive to Stage West to get our rooms finalized and have our booze cooled in the fridge.. I kinda had a bit of trouble in the beginning as always. I have a prepaid mastercard since I was still not 18, so like I had to load the card before I could use it. I swear I put enough money but nnoooo it was not enough. I had to use my own cash that was for the DJ and so Bella had to lend me money for the DJ. It all turned out okay in the end.
   
5. Drive to Valleys. We were supposed to be there before 5 but because of the insane weather, we got there at 5:45... Talk about filipino time!

I planned to put on my dress in the place because there is no way I was getting my dress wet from walking from the car to inside!

So we get there and everything was pretty much ready. And the table arrangemtn was totally not how I wanted it because I undermeasured the tables. They were wayy bigger than what I thought but the number of people not coming kind of made up for it... I loved my cake and watermelon carving. Wheeeee! =D

For performances, I performed twice. One with Gerene on guitar (I bruise easily by Natasha bedingfield). And a solo (On the wings of love by Regine Velasquez). So like I forgot to mention that my solo was dedicated for my grandpas. Chantelle performed a contemporary dance choreographed by her to Umbrella by Marie Digby. Amazing let me tell you, I got a video but I haven't seen pictures of it D:. "Jaimee's mounties" also performed. Great performance let me tell you. I know how hard it is to get people together to practice, and Mike told me how exhausted you guys were that day, and yet you still performed so I'm very thankful. And I can't forget my 'surprise' by Tamara and Chelle. They HAD to do For Good from wicked huh... :P

So for my thank you speech, I was supposed to read off from this thing I typed out. I eventually gave up on reading from it because well I was nervous and also it was easier for me to just say it on top of my head. I shouldn't have done that because I ended up forgetting people like my caterer, DJ, emcee, Chantelle, Mike, Cj, and Bryan. So I'm just personally thanking them now ... like here... haha.

Lack of practice on the father and daughter dance... more like no practice at all. HAHA my dad tried to show off though but Im just like Dad what are you doing??? Very funny though.

Amazingly, all of the 18 guys and 18 girls I asked to be in my court made it, except for Jhoanna. And I asked Chantelle to be one of my candles last minute so she was the only one not wearing pink. It's okay though because Chantelle is awesome and deserved to be in it! Highlight of that part is Nikolai randomly dipping me. =) And my 18 candles' wishes were so nice, I love you guys.

Ohh David david david. My escort... Our dance was just so funny. Even though, it wasn't the greatest, you still tried because of me. Thank you! I could not have asked for a better escort.

We had this whole major photo session. I think Vivien started it but yeah... Haha.

I could not wait any longer for my presents so I opened most of them. Here's one that matches with my dress! xD

At first, I thought there were not enough cars to drive us to the afterparty. But we actually had enough! There were only a few pictures taken of the afterparty. But let's just say it was FUN. And I think I had one too many tequila shots, hpnotiq, vodka, and smirnoff ice. Let's keep it at that... :P

time of my life

My debut was soooo freaking amazing! I'm sooo sad it's over though. Just too many things to mention, but I will eventually write a post on that. But for now, I'm too tired! xD

HOLY CRAPOLY

IT'S TODAY!!!
YAY =D

the last thing on your mind...

or so i thought i was. apparently not, you calling me 1.5 hour before my birthday... Thank you. That was completely unexpected but I guess he does have a heart in there somewhere. I just hate how I wanna get over you but you come back when I'm about to let go. Well happy birthday to me (and Andrew lol)! So friday is the party, what happens happens I guess... And so far, he's the only one who've called to greet me... hm...

re-spark?

Getting to hang out with him kind of rekindled a flame... It made me see how much mr dumdum has nothing to offer but a headache and heartache. It's weird that I can actually talk to him about relationships now... like the whole love should be reciprocal and used his own past relationships as an example. He has a very weird sense of humour, cook, laundry, a good son and brother, caring... perfect boyfriend material but at the same time how would I know right?

art history: bury yourself in a damn hole

I probably wouldnt have despised this course if I had a more interesting prof. Holy geez, I have NO notes.. none at all. Haha. And she makes the exam from 8 in the freaking morning until 11... so that means I have to wake up at 6 and leave by 7 to get there on time. it's such a piss off. At least after this exam, I have one more to go and I'm free... at least for now. I WANT a vacation. Who wants to kidnap me??? seriously! Anyway I'll have a funny blog soontimes after I upload the pictures from yesterday. Back to studying I go... >.<

AH i want this

more than anything... an acoustic guitar. ahhh...!

aw memories...

So Andrew finally posted up pictures from the prom afterparty. Finally a nice one where I am not passed out or super duper gone xD. This was one of the best nights of my life and I will never forget it. I know this post is long overdue but I just got a good picture for it. :P I really really miss high school. All of your friends are there and you don't have to go to such lengthy measures to see them like now. It sucks because convenience really does affect friendship. If your schedules conflict, there is no way you'll see each other. At least I have my birthday where at least MOST of my friends are coming. YAAAAY! :) Ah... all this talk is making me really nostalgic... Cheers to four years you guys, and I hope for many more!

exams... SUCK

So I am preparing to bomb my anthropology exam at the moment... I just thought I should take a break and write a blog. Well I've been taking 2 mins breaks every 10 mins. HAHA. I have such a bad attention span. It's not my fault really... Why the heck did I take anthro again? For fun... gahh bad idea. I like the course but I don't wanna do the exam for it! Aw mann... Then I have art history on monday to study for... I dont evn have notes for that class haha! :(

this is for vivien's grandpa

I woke up and checked her blog and read about it. I'm so sorry. I'll pray for him and hope he'll be okay. Also for you and your family to be okay. Vivien, I want you to know I'm here for ya. If you wanna talk just do it... don't even think twice because I have an exam tomorrow. Love ya!

can't sleep...

so i decided to write about what i want for my birthday/christmas =]:


Well basically any hoodie would do. I prefer colours I don't have yet like white, green, brown... but then I can never have enough pink right =D


I need more jeans and I like the skinny fit. I have a dark wash and black. I want the faded wash... :)


OMG. I've wanted this kind of sweater since forever!!! :D Any colour really...


HAHAHA. "I've always wanted sweat pants" (inside joke with chelle)... these ones would be nice. It doesn't HAVE to be from UofT.


So far I have only one uoft sweater and it's really comfy and warm. Any colour would do. I have the black and pink one hehe.


This foundation is amazing. My colour is 128 =D


I loveeeeee Urban Decay's eyeshadow. I have the purply-pink and glittery gold one already, so any colour but those two :)


I just can't get over how much i love this perfume. AHHH! :P


An iPhone wouldn't hurt either... but I probably won't get that anyway. Either way I'm getting a new phone next year.


Oh and him... haha JOKES. omg you guys if you know who this is, please dont EVER tell ANYONE I have this up. hahahaha. :P
PS. this was a joke... i made you laugh? ROTFL.

nyahaha =]

Yay for me not being lonely on blogger anymore. Check out Vivien's and Chantelle's blogs (just dont stalk them k :P). The links are on the side :)

Back to stressing!

PS. 6 days yayyy ^.^

OMG

seven days...
not like the ring haha
but yaaaay =D
and...
first exam on friday... *gulp* HELP!
so like the weekend after my debut...
idk how many events ive been invited to and idk if im going to any haha
cuz 1 im gonna be too tired. 2 i have family over. and 3 i might have work dunno yet. :|

holy EFFING geez!

15 more days until my birthday
17 til my debut
23 til christmas

on the other hand...
this week:
wed - lecture/lab/book test for psych
thurs - cct exercise #3
         - anthro paper due
         - women studies midterm
dec12: anthro exam
dec15: art history exam
dec17: cct exam

LRGBJRSBGJRSLEABGENB MN M!

some accomplishments... finally

so it's about a month away (yay ^.^)
i actually have most of the stuff done such as

• caterer
• DJ
• dress
• corsages, bouttinaires
• invitations
• program
• souvenirs

i still need:

• collect $20
• practice for my performance
• song list
• decorations
• linen rental
• table arrangement

greaaat. D=

now what...

Now I really know that we're never gonna happen...
and that I'm actually okay with that.

And why is it he always comes back when I've totally moved on and makes me feel bad for doing so? Just get out of my life, I'm fine without you please!

keep on keeping on

should i?
hm..
awkward... (n)

lacking

of...

• sleep
  
• money
  
• food
  
• brain
  
• updates
  

school is not very fun for me right now. i finished all my midterms, actually more like BOMBED them. Too late now though... I keep saying "I wish I studied earlier" but I think even if I did, art history will still be the same pain in the ass shit it is. LOL. Yes, put 5 artworks in the midterm out of the 300+++ we studied so far. I hate you art history. You are in the past and I think you need to stay there. Why did I take this course? Oh yeah, to get into my program! GRRR! :(

AHHH OMG MEHNNN

JERIC IS SO AWESOME
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
pogi
matalino
ang galing
(Y)

ps. yeah right! :P
haha ;)

rant time!

I HATE HATE HATE HATE MY MANAGER
fuck
he doesnt DO anything
he doesnt KNOW anything
hes pretty much just there to go up to our faces and boss us around
AHHHH
the good ppl left with me are wanting to quit
wtf am i gonna do if they do? :(
dammit.

"sometimes i wish i could save you"
ive tried
youre hopeless
u cant help somebody up if they wont grab your hand
amount of times youve ignored me? THREE
i was gonna say hi but you looked away AGAIN
so i got up and walked away
wtf else was i supposed to do?
i'll be your friend and all
but are u mine?

whatever guy

"you dont know how it hurts..."
you really dont. you even admitted how passive and apathetic you are. fine whatever. it's ok with me but you should be careful because you lose a lot of people being like that. you are so dry sometimes.
"i loved you with a fire red now its turning blue..."
& you didnt even apologize. you tell me that's just how you are. WHATEVER. im hanging on your rope you got me 10000000 feet off the ground... but im about to let go. i hope you wouldnt have to say "what if..."
and when i say i 'll be there no matter what i mean it. dont tell me i shouldnt make promises i might not be able to keep because hell this one i will keep. be the fucking biggest asshole to me, i can take it...
i know im weird. i shouldnt put myself to shit like this but some pain is worth it just to have your company... haha gaaaay. no comment.

that was just plain rude!

WTF just happened?
I was just talking to you in the morning and I see you in the mall. I go say hi to your friend and you just WALK AWAY. You didnt even look at me. It's like I wasnt even there. Clearly, I am invisible. That was too hurtful... i dont evn know what to think. :(

i am beyond annoyed!

i fucking hate my parents right now
they got mad at me cuz i didnt put scissors back WTF
then they say i shouldnt study and clean
like thats the fucking right way righhht?
HELL NO
screw you just cuz youre not paying for me
IM PAYING FOR ME
i love jasmine but she is not my child
u fcking take care of her yourself GEEZ
i have other things to take care of just LEAVE ME ALONE
and apparently i am not studying
so explain to me what i was doing for FOUR HOURS last night
and TWO hours during my break
huh
thats DAMN right
i was STUDYING my ass off
and now? i am attempting to write a 1000 word essay that's due tomorrow
so u STFU.
mmk?

i am really not liking these past few weeks
i got 9 wrong in my multiple choice for psych
im stupid
i hate me
DAMN IT :(

no FUCKING way

i just found out that one of my best friends VERONICA DORIC has an exam the day of my debut and after and might not be able to come.
FUCK :( im bummed.

woot

at least i have accomplished something today:
INVITES are FINALLY printed out!
=D
whoo-hoo.

finally some privacy...

i feel too many people have been reading about my life.
the main reason i created one was to rant about personal stuff
not for others to read.
unless youre one of the few that knows about this
plz i wanna keep it as private as i can.
so have some respect for my privacy.

ps. he is officially a fucking jackass. dw buddy, you're not that special. i give up starting conversations with YOU. MY GOD am i fucking sick of it. why am i always the one huh? i shouldnt have expected ANYTHING from you... just like what most people said. heres that question again: WTF WAS I THINKING?!

wisen up!

yes you jaimee.
geez to think by now you would've learned from the past.
wouldnt call it mistakes though...
maybe wrong decisions leading to A LOT of hurt
which SHOULD have been a good smack on the head

with a "WTF where you thinking?"
but nooo
here we are again...
chin up.
look in the mirror.
and say...
youre a fucking dumbass.
it's not like you'll ever change.
not even for yourself huh.


funny question of the day:

customer: "do you have a baby?"
jaimee: yeahh.... *customer looks shocked*
HUH? noo i dont! im 17
*customer looks more shocked*

lol so apparently, i don't look like i work there. too "chic" too "young".
and just because i know a lot about baby stuff, doesnt mean i have a baby. it means i am doing my job well! and i also have a baby SISTER. hmm...

geebuz

"spin me around and i'll pretend to understand"

so many things still undone:

• FAH project
  
• PSY study
  
• CCT paper
  
• buy new boots
  
• debut stuff (centerpiece, print out invites STILL i swear next week
  
• 2nd dress (PINK)
  
• silver shoes
  
• pretty silver jewelry
  
• book off stuff.
  
• get dec 12,19,20,maybe 21 off crappp.

n2s: "just smile & tell yourself it doesnt hurt you..."

i need..

a "fb profile picture" moment... grr.

work...

Finally, one good thing about it. Since I'm pretty much working by myself in kidswear, I get very busy that I dont have time to think about my crappy life and stupid problems. PLEASE, just get out of my head!

And ahhh, KILL ME. Next week is going to be lethal. FAH project due before Monday, PSY test on wed, CCT essay due before Thurs. AHHHHHH!

I was about to leave my class today again ahaha, only cuz apparently UTM internet was down the whole day today. WTF? But oh well, I played solitaire and mahjong the whole hour. And yes I actually finished both games and won! :D Then my tutorial for it was totally a "shoot me now" moment. It was an FAH grammar workshop, and the prof pretty much just explained how periods, commas, colons, semi-colons, hyphens, etc. work. Hmmm, buddy, would we be uni if we didn't know how use those? GEEZ! :( my life sucks big time.

Nvrm that quote

All you need is yourself. Bitch please!

Hay naku pinaikotikot mo na ko. Malapit na rin nmn akong sumuko so wag kang magaalala. Hilong hilo na ko kahit na ilang araw pa lang nmn ang nakaraan. Masyado na kong naiinis, kung ayaw mo di wag. Ganun ka rin nmn pala katulad ng lahat ng mga gagong lalake na hindi alam ang gusto, o talagang walang gusto. Gulo mo pare, heh!

PS. Haha too bad you cant see it. Not meant to be seen just wanted to let it out. You can still read it if you knew HTML, if not sucks for you!

Haha

The weather today was just horrible. It made me not go to my women studies and cct lecture. I hear I didn't much. Hahaha. I actually went to the food court and studied. And YES, I study better in that environment with my iPod on. Yeyeah I'm weird whatever. I was supposed to get a haircut with Rheena but they were full, who would've thought Donato's to be so busy on a Thursday? (I did but Rheena didn't believe me lol). Ohhh well. Ooh I also got prices down for my debut stuff. And I'm sorry that pink is not the in-colour but it cant be THAT hard. Pink ties? Don't even bother going to square one, theyre all overpriced. I say you follow Robert's suggestion of buying one in front of Food Basics at Central Pkwy (Y) lawl.

Be surprised

I actually skipped a class today. I was too tired to get up so I decided to not go to my Women studies tutorial. I don't think I missed much though since 1: i cant understand a word the teacher is saying and 2: all you do in the class is talk about what youve read anyway. Good job Jaimee. Wooow I wouldve been looking down at this two years ago but I guess I just don't give a damn about it anymore!

Schedule for today? Same as usual.
12-1 : CCT tut
1-2 : break
2-3 : ANT tut
3-5 : WGS lec
5-6 : CCT lec
6-whenever : surprise me.

And oh, "all you need is love."

Random thought...

I should just go to Cabot one of these days in my uniform and yeah... HAHA.
Anyway, I've got some major catching up to do. Also, I am not in the greatest mood... so just don't bother me.

OH EM GEE

Cabot yearbooks 2007-08 are finally here!
I'm picking mine up Tuesday yeahhh!
Y'all better sign it or else.

Oh and I found out something about me during my psychology tutorial yesterday. Apparently, I use the left hemisphere of my brain and rarely my right hemisphere. This actually explains my weird OCD-like behaviour with left and right things. Like I always have to land on my right when I'm on the stairs. Or when I eat, it's not okay to have more food in the left side of my mouth. In summary, I got to have the right side of me rather than my left. And since our brains are contralateral (meaning opposite), I am now a step closer to figuring out who I am.

mistaken

I was naive not to let you go when the time was right
I was a fool living in a dream that I thought could last
But I know that you will try to prove me wrong
But it's what I've got to do

I think you're mistaken, I'm sorry to say
I'm really just a loser who's getting in your way
I think you've forgotten, all of your plans
See you never meant to be here
And I think you should know
You're better off alone

And it's clear to me that everything has changed
Cuz nothing that we do feels the same any more
And I'll admit, I'll take the blame
Maybe we just moved too fast
And how could expect something like this to last
And I know that you will try and prove me wrong
But it's what I gotta do

I think you're mistaken, I'm sorry to say
I'm really just a loser who's getting in your way
I think you've forgotten all of your plans
See you never meant to be here and I think you should know
You're better off alone

You and I, we were standing watching us fall apart
So let me go and move along

I think you're mistaken, I'm sorry to say
I'm really just a loser who's getting in your way
I think you've forgotten all of your plans
See I never meant to be here and I think you should know
You're better off alone
Alone alone alone alone alone
Alone alone alone alone alone
Alone alone alone alone alone
Oh, you're better off alone
I think you're mistaken, I'm sorry to say
I'm really just a loser, you're better off alone
Better off alone....

blame me.

Hey guys, it's that once a year post of me ranting and sounding very emo. I am usually a happy person but I can't always be right... It's just that after high school, a lot of realization came to me like...

• No matter how close you are to a person before, if your schedules conflict all the time, your friendship is gonna evenutally fade away.
  
• If you're going to major into something like CCIT in which you know NOBODY in your year.. be prepared to be lonely as hell. It's been my fourth week and it's really not getting any better. The hour that you are in a lecture, no one really has the time to turn to their neighbour and say hi because you know that next week, you won't be sitting with that same person.
  
• Most of my friendships are not reciprocal. I give too much and I'm okay with the fact that I will never get anything back. It's cool, but there just comes a time where you get really frustrated and annoyed.
  
• Friends forever? Uhhh, you mean FRIEND forever. You can keep telling each other that, but you know deep inside that in the next few years, you will be hanging out with a different crowd of people.
  
• You can't say that you should be my best friend just because you've known me the longest. Heck you can know me my whole life like my family, but they really don't know me. No one's got the right to say, "you were my friend first." That sounds so pathetic.
  
• I am the kind of person to put all the blame to myself because I want to believe that everyone is good. I know I shouldn't think like that but too bad it's how I am. I can't force anything to anybody so it's always gonna be because I am never good enough.
  
• I usually like the kind of guys I shouldn't. My friends are usually against them but they never got to know him like I did. I dont know, I just want to be THAT girl he is gonna change for. Haha, reason why I'm still single! No one will ever do that for me...

AHHH!

Someone shoot me. Why do we have to read so damn much? It's only been four weeks and I'm sooo behind. So much for reading ahead. Well at least good news. I have no exam on the 19th (day of my party). YAAAY! Other than that, there's really nothing much to smile about.
PS. I need to find at least ONE person to watch the midnight opening of Twilight with me... anyone?? :( Lol, I'd go even if I was alone though... saaad.

i hate this part right here...

I need to stop falling when I know there is nobody there to catch me...

i'm done ♥

I wasn’t looking for this
What is this?
I don’t know
You know I was doing just fine
By myself
On my own
Tell me how to
Stop these feelings

I don’t wanna fall in love
Just wanna have a little fun
Then you came and swept me up
And now I’m done, so done
Fallen madly deeply
I Surprised myself enough to find
That what’s began
Is love
And now I’m done, so done
I’m done
Yeah

I can’t imagine right now
Standing here
Without you
To think that I tried to ignore
What I felt
What I knew
I could never
Stop these feelings

I don’t wanna fall in love
Just wanna have a little fun
Then you came and swept me up
And now I’m done, so done
Fallen madly deeply
I Surprised myself enough to find
That what’s began
Is love
And now I’m done, so done
I’m done
Yeah

Thank you for not letting go
When I said let me go
Thank you for timing
Thank your finding
Thank you for not believing me
Baby when I said

I don’t wanna fall in love
Just wanna have a little fun
Then you came and swept me up
And now I’m done, so done
Fallen madly deeply
I Surprised myself enough to find
That what’s began
Is love
And now I’m done, so done
I’m done
Yeah

I wasn’t looking for this
And now I’m done
I’m done

one word...

NAKAKAKILIG.
lawl.
:)

omgwtf

Ughhh another lecture for art history soon. Someone shoot me! :(
I'm not in a good mood, leave me alone.
Im just not having a good day right now. Well yeah it just started and it hasnt at all been good. Maybe I need to stop listening to these emo songs. It's affecting my mood lol. If I bitch at you it's not my fault I swear.
Breakfast: Booster Juice
Lunch: " "
Dinner: who knows.
I got work 5 to 10 today. Fuuun. I need a day off honestly! I can't wait for tomorrow, to chill with la biffle Rheena. Her birthday on sunday yo. Greet her or I kill u. :)

Ughh.

I'm annoyed.
I fell asleep at 12ish and woke up at 2.
Way to ruin my sleep now im frustrated.
:/

hot dayummm

so im in this room called the study room waiting for my class to start which is at 2. im such a loner guy. am i really that fugly? geez :P
i really wanna go home now. like im learning more at home. since im on my laptop and i just go on msn or fb instaed of paying attention to my prof. and at home i actually read (sometimes) and i get more out of that. AHHH. but oh well i guess i'll just go so i dont have to be home.
things i still need to do:

• print out invitation
  
• finalize the guest list
  
• pay for the centerpieces & etc.
  
• find out how i can pay for my tuition since my lame brother is useless
  
• go to the gym... seriously!
  
• catch up on my @#%^ing readings
  
• go to ROM
  
• start on CCT assignment due on oct something.
  
• sleep more
  

this is me reading...

HAHA.
well since im so darn insomniatic, i attempt to read what i'm supposed to read.
but yuuuup you guessed it, i'm not.
oh random thing. i love phone calls in the middle of the night <3 lol and i am so not a phone person. yeahhh i'm weird.
haha so there was this lady in school today. she tied herself up to a pole and stood there to give out free hugs. and lorie waited for her to tie herself then give her a hug. HAHA (see i mentioned you lorie.) oh geez wednesday is like the day i get all my stress out by laughing; with the assitance of le charlie et le "lohrie" <- (pathetic attempt at french accent). these two girls can make a tree laugh. seriously. imagine me.



i was running on pizza and booster juice all day and maaaaan. i was actually okay. kinda hungry but like not grumbling-stomach hungry. and it is decided that my anthro prof looks like al pacino; NOT sylvester stallone or whatever that guy's name is from america's sweethearst with the small penis. LMFAO.
art history's as boring as it always is. she needs to like have a drink before class or something. so she's not like barely hear-able. (is that even a word?)


im gonna go back to my reading now... (or try to.) "later days!" (OH EM GEE the weekenders! <3)
ps. i HATE spiders. dont wanna kill them but dont wanna see them... EVER.

today's gonna be... fun?

Most probably not.
12-1 : art history lecture (KILL ME)
1-4 : BREAK. (imma catch up on my readings, BOOSTER JUICE)
4-5 : anthro lecture
5-6 : break. (dont know. im prob gonna be a loner and wait in the hallway)
6-8 : psych lecture (no internet in that room... first hour, the guy talks about something unrelated to psych, 2nd hour we actually learn something)
ahhh. :(
i need to make more friends dammit!
like ppl need to chill, randomly stop and say hi to ME! i dont bite... (strangers lawl)
WHY ARE MY FRIENDS IN LIFE SCIENCES?! nobody's in CCIT with me WTF.




other plans this week:
school, 5-10 work on fri
go downtown on saturday to visit ROM for art history project with my mom, sis, and bro. then hopefully rheena's birthday dinner at KG. (yn) YO NERISSA AND JAES U GUYS BETTER COME!!!
sunday? not sure. i probably have work all day again. hopefully at least. since i already dont have work on sat because they are cutting hours wtf. i work 2 days only this week. i am annoyed!!! but i guess more free time for me.. well ish.



and lol @ me finally finishing the design for my invites and finding out i had stupid spelling mistakes. GEEZ eigHteenth. wow and i swear i hav spelling OCD. thanks robert for pointing that out. now all i have to do is print them and give them out. ooh and i started planning out the tables. OMG it is NOT easy. i am about to lose my mind (!)

ps. looks like i am gonna have an escort on my debut :) thanks david.
pps. quote-to-smile-about today: "u have a nice smile u shud smile more" :)

things to do... seriously!

i am not one to write lists but i have so much i still need to do that i just have to write them down somewhere!

• Catch up on my readings
  
• Print out my invitations for my debut.
  
• Find a way to give it out to to my guests.
  
• Finish ROM project for FAH
  
• Go to FAH Grammar.
  
• Sign up for an experiment for Psych.
  
• Purchase centerpiece items online.
  
• Buy myself a new winter jacket and boots!!!
  
• Stop buying more than $5 worth of drinks per day!

LOL

total boredom
random pictures with captions.

"you get her suicidal"

but mind u life's really not that bad. it cant always be one bad thing after the other. you ALWAYS have a choice. life is meant to be lived. right?

true friends?

Add a little distance and all of a sudden it's like you dont even have time to say hi. I ask how school is you never seem to answer... Well I give up. So the next time you "feel like" telling me, I don't care anymore k? I ask for one day to celebrate my birthday with you but you can't even give that. I've planned this since God knows when. Thanks for not being there. Oh and the next time you have an excuse for not making it to my birthday, make sure you keep your reason STRAIGHT. Dont tell another reason to someone else cuz I will find out especially she's one of my closest friends you idiot. But then again, there wont be a next time for you my friend... or I thought you were for a long time.




It just bothers me that I can't even have a day in your life anymore. I'm not being a drama queen I understand I guess if ever you are telling the truth. But buddy, "dont you ever for a second think you're irreplaceable." Believe me, I'll have one hell of a good time; not for you but for myself!

HELP!

AHHH
my prof for art history is SERIOUSLY boring
and monotone
and too breathy
...
HELP ME!

i gotta catch up

I've been assigned so much reading on the first week.
I still havent finished ahhh!
=/

first week of university: accomplished!`

It was alright I guess. Friends are kinda hard to make when youre too busy trying to get down the notes. But I guess it was only the first week.

PS. I am gonna fail art history haha! My prof is soooo boring and monotone.

an improvement... kind of.

My friend Jackie eventually showed up in that class so I wasnt lonely anymore! =] But um.. fine arts history? i know NOTHING about art history. I kinda have to be in it though cuz it's a prereq for VCC specialist. >.< I don't see why though but whatevz. It's not my fault my artistic eye is blind. LOL.


I'm FREAKIN exhausted. I woke up bright and early (at 8.. that's early for me considering my class was at 12) so I can pick up my OSAP documents. But I have to do the same thing tomorrow because my LAME brother told me I didn't need my bank info and it turned out i did and his excuse was 'I forgot.' Perfect! Thanks for wasting my time bro! My classes are actually very interesting. Good news: I haven't fallen asleep yet! :O Shocking I know! I almost did though in the first half hour of Psych. I was at school for about 7 hours by then so that's why. It's not because I'm a lazy bum.. k maybe I am but still. My prof just kinda kept talking about really unnecessary stuff like what his Masters are and etc. I hate how the first day of class always start with the profs putting up a presentation explaining everything that could be found on the syllabus that is online. We can read that in our own time thanks. At least my anthro prof is reasonable. We started right away! I like i like. My anthro prof kinda looks like Robert De Niro too. Haha.

So another cct class in that big ass auditorium for an hour where I don't know anybody. It's really not so fun to be in that class.


On a happier note, my best best best friend Nerissa (loser) has Women Studies with me. Yes we have A CLASS together. Better than nothing. =D Since she DITCHED me yesterday. Had me waiting in front of the libary for so damn long so she owed me BIG TIME. So she stayed til 8 today for me! :) Her class ended at 4. Lol I love her so much man.

...another quite lonely class

So here I am waiting in this BIG auditorium again...
waiting for class to start...
in about 10 mins...
yaay?

jaimee is sad...

And a loner...
Having 500 people around you and knowing not one of them is... there's not even a word for it. Horribler than horrible. Sadder than sad. Lonelier than lonely.
Most of the people look like slackers too.
I'm really not liking that class at the moment and I have it again on Thursday.
Greaaat.

my first day... AGAIN

So going through the feeling of knowing nobody and being in a different atmosphere AGAIN is totally heartbreaking. Like yeah I'm not the only one, but seeing a lot of people that knows someone else is kind of annoying to see. It's not like I absolutely don't know anyone. I do. A lot of "Caboteers" and "others" are actually at UTM, but most of them are in either Life Sciences or Commerce. I am the ONLY one in CCIT. Yeahyeahyeah I'll meet new people and make new friends in the near future (I hope.). But for now, I guess I'm gonna have to be strong and don't let this get to me too much. "Just believe... things can only get better."


I realized how much I really dislike crowds. I feel so suffocated and paranoid! I guess I just got used to Cabot being so small, where you know everyone by first AND last name. I miss high school. The freedom in university is better though. I didn't actually sleep in class! Well I had one class from 4 to 5 which was Anthropology. As long as the topics stay interesting, I should be okay. I knew ONE person out of what... 200-300? I didn't even know he was in my class until he came to wait to get in class. Oh geez, all I'm asking for is ONE familiar face and I'm good. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let my other classes have at least one person. I'm gonna keep both fingers crossed and until then, I'm just gonna keep waiting aimlessly...

today's the day...

MY FIRST DAY IN UNIVERSITY...
like EVER.
omgomgomg.
anthro class 4 to 5...
i know... NADA!
gahhh :(
aw well.
i still dont have my books.
i hate being lack-of-money-er.
im not poor though LOL.
you know im nervous when i start typing like this...
random thoughts
y'know.
hehe.
damn it i need to pick up my osap documents.
that means waking up earlier and get info from the bank and ahhhh!
seriously ITS TODAY!

So like...

School starts in 2 FREAKIN days for me.

OMGWTFAHHH

And I don't even have my books yet because I don't have the money until the 12th. So... I'm pretty much LE screwed. :)

My courses this year:
ANTHRO, COMMTECH1, COMMTECH2, FINEARTSHISTORY, PSYCH, VISCULT, WOMSTUDIES
TRES fun EH

Well I used to be more excited than scared to start university. But I've realized I really can't screw it up now. I need to stay focused and that means no distractions PLEASE. Right now, I really don't have a distraction. No offense though, UTM does not have any sources of distraction anyway. So 's all good. But seriously... >.<

Adventures of BCJ (hey look its alphabetical!)

Today was better than most days I guess. My two favourite twins came to visit me. Belle called and came in "15 minutes... no half an hour... 15 minutes!" Lol k so they came 20 minutes after we hung up because they actually went to Rabba (one of the only stores open because it's Labor Day) and there was a line up just to buy a bottle of Sprite. Haha! We decided to drive to Mcdee's. We got there and a bunch of 8ers were there and I've never felt soooo old. :/ It was kind of scary but I blend in well with my height! =] But yeah the only thing I really eat from there is their snack wrap and fries. On our drive home we wanted to see Jan but she wasn't picking up. We had a map and figured we'll find it. We gave up after almost getting lost. Bahahaha. We went back to my house to eat. And for some odd reason I tend to spill my drinks especially when they're there. So weird. Last time the bottle exploded this time I was just reaching for my cup and it fell. It's not my fault I'm clumsy I swear!! >.< So after cleaning all that sticky mess (yes it was very sticky because I'm smart enough to step on it... again.), we argued on what we should do. Chelle voted Golden Compass, Belle wasn't so excited about that though. After 10 minutes of the movie, I kind of got bored and so we stopped the movie and played the Wii instead. So the Wii wheel for Mario Kart is impossible to use! "Why are we always last place?" "IM FIRST IM FIRST IM FIRST" Hahaha. Ily guys.



PS. Kristine sucks for "folding". Hehe I'm joking mannn! ♥

Mmm tacos

So random conversation with Jaesel. The topic was Chantelle's present then it somehow got into tacos. It's kind of an inside joke so you really might think it's stupid. My mom always makes tacos for my birthday party. Like ALWAYS (except last year cuz we went to Boston Pizza instead but still...). It just made me remember of all the good times and memories. Here's some of them:

• The Others scaring the CRAP out of nerissa.
  
• Me and Jaesel scaring the CRAP out of nerissa during the movie which led to a permanent taco stain at my old house.
  
• Don't take the ****ing wrong turn! Geez that actually did scare me. I am never going on an unplanned roadtrip.
  
• Cake fight!!!
  
• "Breakfast time!" What was the name of that movie again?
  
• Jaesel coming very late; as in everyone left late haha! Then taking a picture of her with clown hair. I wonder where that picture is. >.<
  
• David being a complete perv on my couch. Ha that sounds SO wrong. It's nothing dirty I swear. You had to be there to know what I'm not lying.
  
• Lol the cherry with Rio!
  
• Nik ft. Nerissa and Jaimee in the bathrooom -> This is actually his dream.

There's many many more! I just have a really bad memory. If you can remember any let me know. Ahh my birthday this year is gonna be SICK. Jaesel please don't forget the tacos :P Hehe.

PS. I still don't have my books. AHH! Panic attack x_x. Exactly 7 more days. Oh dear oh dear...